You.

From the moment I saw Prince Charming kiss Snow White awake, I began to imagine You. In the dimly lit living room, the bright glow of the television screen lit up my face the way the thought of You lit up my heart. I didn’t know You then. Twenty years later and I still don’t know You. Maybe I do, but if so I’m unaware of it at the present moment. You are someone I’ve spent years constructing in my head, but at the same time I know You exist. At the same time, as much as I’d like to think I dreamed You up, I know with how wild and wonderful You are, there’s no way to pinpoint all that makes you You. You are what happens when someone meets everything (both incredible & terrible) in life with pure love—an infinite optimist, a soulful light.

Truth is, I can think day in and day out about You and what I think You will be like. But I know that when You finally show up, You will be all of that, none of that, and so much more. You are the unexpected and the familiar. You bring me healing, but You also need it from me. You hurt, I hurt. I forgive, You forgive. And when we grow, we grow together, not apart.

You tell me you like the way my mind works. You wake me up with fresh coffee. You love the way it feels when I run my hands through your hair. My mother adores You. You call me by my last name sometimes. You eat the vanilla side of half-moon cookies because You know I only want the chocolate. You play me that one song that never fails to make you cry. I cry too. You fantasize with me about all of the places we’ll go, and You start a change jar so we can get there someday. You see us as an adventure. You see us as effortless. You see our love as a way to breathe positivity and generosity into the world. Above all, You are honest with me.

You are honest with me. 

You are honest with me, and You know I would rather hear the ugliest truths fall from your mouth than the prettiest lies. You are everything—everything wonderful the Universe could think up.

I am a wanderer by profession & by nature. Each step is one closer to You. You could be seconds away, or decades. I don’t know when You will find me or I you. But when You do, You will know. And when I wander, You will not shy away. You will follow, proudly and happily, falling into step beside me where You belong.

I am a romantic, and I have been romancing You from the moment I could pick up a pen and write a rhyme. I write about You constantly. You are my favorite subject, and I am Yours. I can’t wait to meet You. Be it for the first time or once again.

light it up.


The minute I step foot into this city I can feel myself basking in the glowy magic that is New Orleans. Glowy, dirty, raw, ethereal magic. I thrive on it. Sipping hot coffee at one of my favorite spots, Café Beignet, I intended to ask my cards what I needed to know today. I had started my morning with an hour and a half long phone conversation with my mom. Talking to her always turns out to be more necessary than I think it is. So if you’re looking for a sign to call your mother, this is it. 

Call your mother.

Anyways, I had just finished explaining to her how much I’ve learned lately, specifically since the eclipse in mid-August. There’s a certain unshakable faith I have in myself that simply wasn’t present before.


If you’re someone who trusts easily and you don’t second guess yourself constantly, I’m proud of you. Seriously, I would like to bake you one of my famous triple chocolate cheesecakes and hang out sometime. I myself come from a world of self-doubt. I feel like I came out of the womb undercutting my own abilities, questioning everything & everyone, assuming their motives and often, assuming the worst. This has led so many times to my own self-destruction. It didn’t matter how much evidence I had that proved I was capable, that I was powerful, that I was already actually in possession of everything I needed to manifest my dreams. This negativity latched itself onto me. The negativity was born from and fed by low self-esteem and a lack of appreciation for who I was; who I am.


Over the past few years, with deep self-reflection, healing and a commitment to self-love no matter what flaws I perceived myself to have, that negativity no longer has a supply to feed off of. Spiritually, mentally and physically I am in the best place I’ve ever been, and by the grace of the Universe, I’m only improving. Financially, I guess I’m okay but I’d be better if I stopped buying SO many new clothes (I’m working on that! Haha… sort of).

So today, in this little café, with my faith in the Universe & head in the clouds I asked, “What do I need to know? What knowledge can I share with the people I love today?” And the Universe said, “You’ve come to an end, yes, but now you are at a new beginning. You are on the type of journey you’ve desired for a long time. In fact, you may not have even known until now how desperately you were searching for it. I will support you on this path. But you already knew that. You knew it because you trust me, and you feel it because you trust yourself. You have the abilities to take action on all you’ve learned. The course has been laid out for you, it’s up to you to travel down it. Begin.”


And I really hope you all just read that in Morgan Freeman’s voice, because that is what I imagined while writing it. So how do I know the Universe said this? Because I pulled the cards: Trust and the King of Wands.

“Trust” in John Holland’s Psychic Tarot for the Heart deck is representative of the Fool in the traditional Rider-Waite deck (the deck you most likely picture when someone mentions tarot). It’s numerological association is zero and it begins the Major Arcana. It’s the start to your journey. It’s feeling young, free, refreshed and invigorated by the thought of what’s to come ahead. Holland writes, “Trusting the Universe takes courage, but it also removes the burden of doing it all on your own… This card is a reminder that positive energy is available to you to manifest what you truly desire… This is a card of action and opportunity… Put aside any fear, disillusionment, frustration or hopelessness and open your heart to what you desire. Do it now with the carefree innocence you had as a child.” 

In conjunction with the King of Wands (who’s astrological associations with Leo actually speak to childlike qualities the Fool alludes to (Leo rules children)), it couldn’t be a more positive message. Wands are the suit of fire. The King of Wands burns brightly. He dazzles and inspires. As Liz Dean writes, “This is the right time to express your ideas and be the individual you are… The practical support you need will be there, but you need to be the initiator. What you do now reflects your truth. Don’t let perfectionism get in the way of your creativity—what you do is more than good enough.”


If this speaks to you, let it. Trust that the Universe supports your plans, but take responsibility for putting them into action. YOU are the King of Wands. You not only possess the passion to chase your wildest dreams, but you have the charisma to inspire others to go after theirs. You’d be doing yourself and everyone else a disservice by resisting this calling. Embrace this new direction. Trust yourself and others. Charge ahead. Light it up.